A little bit of randomness

WARNING: The following blog is completely random.

So, I'm finally done with my internship in St. Louis. They didn't offer me a full time position when I graduate. For a fleeting moment I was a little disappointed. You know that "what's wrong with me" feeling, and the sting of rejection? And then I realized, wait, you didn't really like working here all summer, and you know this isn't really what you want to be doing after graduation, no need to be upset. So I'm off and running again... trying to figure out what I want to do after graduation. Sunday I will be making the long trek back to Ames... I'm excited, but in a way kind of sad. I've had a great time getting to know K and Paul. They're both such wonderful people, and I couldn't have asked for better people to live with. They are probably the best thing I've gotten out of this whole experience. Yeah, the internship was fine, I learned a few things, made good money, and it will look good on my resume. But if it hadn't been for them, my time here would have just been miserable. I'm going to miss them.

We went to an opera tonight, and just like that I can't remember what it was called. It was my first opera, and it wasn't too bad. It was in German, but I guess it isn't a more well know one, and the plot was a little confusing and kind of hard to follow. My mind started wandering a few times. Overall it wasn't bad, but I prefer plays and musicals. Usually they keep my attention better, and I find them more entertaining. It was still good though. I went with K, and her daughter, Margo, who is in town visiting for the weekend. Overall it was enjoyable.

And now for a totally random subject. I really dislike it when you call someone because you need to talk, and for whatever reason they can't talk at the moment and say they'll call you back, and then don't call back. I understand the not being able to talk initially, but I hate it when someone says they'll call you back, and then they forget. It's almost just mean. I'm making a bigger deal out of it than it is, but... sometimes you just need to talk to someone and not just anyone will do. Oh well.

OMG! This is so going to suck... I've been sleeping on a queen bed all summer, and just realized that when I go back to Ames, I'm also going back to my itty bitty twin bed. Oh, that sux0rz! Ha! I'll probably roll out and fall on the floor the first night or two. That'll be fun. :P

In a little bit of what I deem to be good news, Senator Frist has decided to back government-funded stem cell research. Of course, we all remember his threats of getting rid of the right to filibuster during some of the judicial nominations earlier this summer. That's still just completely asinine to me. The worst part is, it'll probably happen again with the new Supreme Court nominee, John Roberts. I'm not sure he's experienced enough to be appointed to the Supreme Court. That, and it's a life time position and he's only 50. Also, from what I have read about him, he's too conservative for my taste. But you never know what someone is going to do once they're on the bench, and he hasn't been a judge for that long... so who knows. It'll be interesting.

I have a new stalker...

.... yes, a new "stalker". A facebook stalker to be more precise. I received this very odd, and totally random message on facebook the other day from some English grad student at ISU.

Hi.

I have your facebook page bookmarked, and for the life of me, I can't remember why now. Perhaps it was a slip of the finger while randomly surfing my so-called social network, perhaps I meant to say something to you a few months ago and forgot, or perhaps... okay, those are the only two I can think of.

Regardless, I thought I would say hello. You do have an extremely interesting profile, so perhaps that's why you're bookmarked. Computers and creativity merged in a female form. A guy couldn't ask for much more.

That is all. Write back if you're bored. :)

I promise I'm not a stalker,

Now, if that isn't stalker-esqe I don't know what is. I wasn't aware that saying you weren't a stalker made it true. Those people from the East Side of campus are . . . different, to put it nicely. I laughed my ass off the first time I read it, and then I read it again... and laughed again. And I continue to laugh every time I read it. I couldn't resist responding. I had to, it was too good to pass up. It wasn't the nicest response... and in fact I took a couple cheap shots. I couldn't help it, it was too easy, and what can I say, that's just my style. What'll be interesting now is to wait and see if he has the balls to respond. That's just what I need... a new "stalker". Last fall there was "Creepy Stalker Chad", as I dubbed him. He was the guy from my software engineering class that just randomly stopped me on the sidewalk while I was walking home one night and said "Hi, Denise." It was early in the semester, and I had no clue who he was, it was well after class, and being the wonderfully witty person I am when caught off guard, I said "Should I know you?" Yeah... I really said it, out loud. And there are always just the typical, weird CS and CprE guys. They're kinda scary sometimes. So yeah... I have a new "stalker." It'll be interesting :)

In totally unrelated news, the heat wave in StL has finally broke. It's been around 100 here for the last week, but it rained last night and things have finally cooled down. I have 2 more days left of my internship, and will hopefully be back in L'Ames sometime Sunday. I can't hardly wait. For as much as I complain about it when I'm there (and even when I'm not), I've really missed it. Regardless, it will good to be back. Back where people don't drive like total idiots, only semi-idiots; where corn looks like corn, instead of this spindely stuff with ears and leaves; where people aren't obsessed with baseball; where all my friends are. I'm so excited, I can hardly contain myself. And just about the time I'll be getting really sick of it, and itching to leave again, it will be May and time for graduation. Hooray!

Alright already, keep your pants on

Jeez people... I know I haven't posted in a while. But seriously! How about you harass me about it just a little more. I haven't had much to write about lately. Things have been pretty quiet and uneventful. Too busy with work to find much to really bitch about :). I will give you one thing though; I absolutely hate the gas pumps in Missouri (or Misery as I prefer to call it sometimes). They're so weird and hard to use. They've got these weird little plastic tubing type stuff over the regular metal nozzle. I don't understand the purpose of them except to maybe totally frustrate and piss off out of towners. That and just normal use of the pump is odd. It really ticked me off today. And after a long day the last thing you need is to have a gas pump get the better of you.

I may have already told this joke (it's not mine, someone else told it to me) but you're going to get it again anyway:
Q: How do you raise the IQ in both Iowa and Missouri?
A: By moving the bottom row of Iowa counties into Missouri!
Ok, most people in Missouri, at least not in the city, aren't that dumb. Yes, there are some, but there are everywhere. I see stupid people all the time.

Another random thing about StL/Missouri is their obsession with baseball and in particular with the Cardinals. Now, for those of you who don't already know, I don't like baseball (and fyi, I don't like football either). I think baseball is one of the most boring games in the world to watch. I just do not see the attraction, unless you're looking for something to put you to sleep. Anyway, back to the point. Everything is about baseball, that's all anybody talks about. "How'd the Cardinals do last night?" I don't know and I don't really care. Now, if it were college basketball, it'd be a totally different story. I live for college basketball season, and especially March Madness. But not baseball. I never watch it on TV, and only ever go to the rare game under much protest. Oh well, seeing the reactions on people’s faces when I tell them I detest baseball is always fun.

Intern Training

So, I’m sitting on the plane right now on my way back from training (posting later obviously). And I can’t sleep so I’ve decided to start on the evitable blog that is bound to be written anyway, might as well do it now since I have nothing better to do. Only problem is that since I’m in the air and I’m on a little itty bitty plane (try 3 seats across, ugh!), it’s kinda bumpy and consequently hard to type. But I’ll manage, I always do :). Training was fun, long, but fun. I met lots of cool people from all the different offices all over the country, hopefully all of whom I’ll get to see again at the end of the summer in Orlando! It was super cool hanging out with “my people” all week. You know, all the Com Sci, CprE types… nerdy/geeky computer people. It was great! They had us out in one of those hotel/conference centers in the middle of no where New Jersey. We spent way too much time in the hotel, not fun. I start getting a little stir crazy being cooped up indoors all day. But a couple nights we went down to the bar in the hotel and shot some pool and had some good quality intern bonding time. One night we went in to New Brunswick and hit one of the local college (Rutgers) bars. That was uber fun (more intern bonding time). Overall it was a good week. We leaned a lot about the company and the different groups within our branch. We also got a better idea of what we will be doing and what we’ll be working on this summer. Granted, by today, most of us were in information overload and nothing was sinking in. We were all standing out in the lobby waiting for our respective transportation, and the bunch of us just looked so dead tired and drained. Probably the coolest thing we did this week was get our laptops. Granted they’re hp’s which wouldn’t have been my fist choice. I was really hoping for a ThinkPad. No such luck :(. Regardless, it’ll give me a chance to use a laptop for a couple months and really decide if I want to shell out the money and buy myself something. One of the cool things about being an intern is we get some of the full time employee perks, like discounts on computers, cell phones, other techie type stuff, clothing etc., which is really cool. I’m gonna have to check it out later when I get home. I might finally be able to get my laptop or my pda. Yay! Oh, and the really crazy thing, is they already have me on a project Monday when I get back. I think I’m going to have to meet with clients Monday afternoon, and I have to be in around 7:30 so I can be debriefed before our little StL intern orientation so I can be prepared for the afternoon. Talk about throwing you in head first. Not even going to get a chance to get settled. But it’s probably a good thing for me. I’ve been bored and itching to get to do some real work. Ya know, I like flying. Looking out the window and all you see is the cute, fluffy tops of the little clouds. It’s like a whole other world up here. All blue and white, calm and peaceful looking and you can see forever. Ha! That was really random. But I’m tired, so it’s ok. I was sleeping while we were sitting on the tarmac in Newark, and I was asleep through take off, but unfortunately I woke up shortly after and now I can’t fall back asleep. Not that that’s a bad thing, I’ll just sleep all that much better tonight when I finally get home. And the randomness continues… I should probably just stop while I’m still ahead and before anybody thinks I’m too crazy, even though most people who know me already know that I am crazy. But that’s ok, maybe more later…

More later... So yeah, got back to St. Louis about 8:30 central time. And I'm in the airport waiting at the luggage carousel waiting for my bag, and I'm waiting and I'm waiting... and my bag still isn't coming around, and I'm starting to wonder wtf. Finally the guy at the little desk makes an announcement that there are unclaimed bags from the Newarkflight by the desk that had never even made it onto the carousel. Now, why would you do that? That is so annoying. Why would you only run about half the bags through on the carousel, that makes no sense to me. But whatever. Crazy airport. But yeah, it's really nice to be back in the Midwest again. Clean smelling air, fields... just a totally different atmosphere. As much as I complain about it, I miss it when I'm gone. That's kinda weird. You don't really appreciate a place until you have to leave it. Like Iowa, it's boring and blah blah blah... but now that I'm in Missouri I really miss it. I mean, yeah, it's just north, but it's so much different down here. Different corn, different roads, different just about everything. And the worst part is about a month after I get back I'll be complaining about it again. Oh well :)

Jon Stewart is my hero

Jon Stewart is my hero! What else is there to say. The Daily Show is just great, sometimes I feel that it's the only news source that isn't owned by The Man, and hence can report the real news. Yes, I realize some of it is a little skewed, and it's a touch satirical, but it's more factual than some of the crap they play on Fox News. But yeah, I was just watching it, and I haven't for a while, and I'd forgotten how great it really is. It's nice to see someone poking a little fun at the news and other current events while still giving you the facts.

So annoying!

So, have you ever been to a museum, art or otherwise, and have someone hover around behind you to make sure you don't touch anything or do anything you shouldn't be doing? Well, if you've never had that happen to you, consider yourself very lucky. I went to the St. Louis Contemporary Art Museum today, and I swear, every time I turned around there was someone standing about 5-10 feet away from me, watching me. And there weren't even very many people in there, and no small children. Common, I've been taught well enough that you're not supposed to touch the art work when you go to the museum. It totally ruins the viewing experience when there is someone hovering around behind you. But there were a couple exhibits I did enjoy. There were 4 all together; Kathrie Kuharic: The World Brought Low; Alexander Ross: Survey; and the 2 I enjoyed the most, Dzine: Punk Funk; and Ruby Osorio: Story of a Girl (Who Awakes Far, Far Away). Dzine is really abstract, bright colors, patterns, shapes etc. I loved it, it was so vibrant and alive. Ruby Osorio was completely different in contrast. All her art is done on paper, in ink and thread. The colors are much more sedate, and there is far more white space around her figures. Her stuff looks more like art you would find in a children's book. It's very beautiful, feminine and simple.

On a totally unrelated note, Cedar Rapids, Iowa, my home town, has the country's safest drivers. Now, growing up there, and learning how to drive there, and having driven other places, I already knew this. What slightly blows my mind is that Des Moines, Iowa is ranked 6th. There is a very stark contrast between how people drive in eastern Iowa vs how they drive in central Iowa. Granted. It's nothing compared to how they drive in Missouri or Illinois, but for Des Moines to be number 6 is a bit astonishing. Makes me wonder how they drive in other parts of the country... scary.

You can find me in St. Louie...

So, I'm in St. Louis. I made the 6 hour drive from Ames yesterday with only one stop. I'm rather proud of myself. The drive wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. It was long, but it was divided highway most of the way. There was a stretch between Mt. Pleasant and Hannibal that wasn't, but there also wasn't much traffic. The only bad thing was I hit the skirts of St. Louis around 4:30... start of rush hour traffic. Bleh! But as soon as I got on I-44 it got a lot better. Overall Avenue of the Saints treated me pretty well. It felt really weird crossing the Iowa/Missouri boarder though. I don't know why, but it did. Leaving the apartment yesterday felt really weird to. I know I'll be back in only 2 months, and those 2 months are going to fly... but it still felt odd leaving. As much as I complain about how boring Ames is, I'm going to miss it. Or maybe not so much miss Ames, but miss some of the people there. You know who you are.

The people I'm staying with are really cool, K and Paul. They have a pool, and I love their dog. He's fun. They've made me feel right at home and like I'm part of the family. That in and of it's self is making this so much easier. It's nice knowing people who know their way around... I'd be lost otherwise. Like today, I don't think I would have made it downtown w/o getting lost if I hadn't been able to ask K how to get there first.

So, lunch today, I got to meet all the other interns that are going to be in the St. Louis office. Most of them I won't be seeing too much of. We all have different training. I and the other Advisory intern, Temi, have training in Somerset, New Jersey for a week. We leave June 12th and get back June 17th. So basically, I have all of next week do to whatever I want, get to know St. Louis a little better etc etc etc. I think tomorrow I'm going to go in, and get a tour of the office (I haven't been there yet) and maybe go to lunch with my buddy Craig. Then June 28th the office is closing at 3, and we're off until July 5th... and it's payed time off! SCORE! I dunno what I'm going to do yet, K and Paul are going to be gone July 2 - 10. Regardless, it'll be a nice little mini vacation. Maybe find someone who wants to go to Six Flags with me. That would be fun, I haven't been there for a few years, and I love their roller coasters.

Well enough rambling for now. I'm going to either go unpack some more or find something else to do. Later!

A class about porn... wtf!?

Those crazy, drunken Hawkeyes are at it again, only this time it's porn instead of booze. I heard about it this morning on the radio, but didn't catch the full story, so I hit the Press Citizen to check it out. It's not as bad as it initially sounds. It's a class about how porn affects today's society and our every day lives. Which is actually kind of interesting, because, anymore, sex is everywhere. And of course, as to be expected, some in the Legislature are throwing a small fit because it's a public school and they're still messing with the education budget. Just more threats from them about cutting some funding... hell, tuition's going up anyway, who's going to notice a little more? Maybe while they're at it they should offer a class about how beer affects society too, and what better place to offer it other than UI... 'cause in heaven there is no beer (prob no porn either). Props Hawks.

Baaaaaah!

Sheep I tell you, they're all sheep! 43%... 43%!!! of Americans poled find that the press has too much freedom. Unbelievable! And only 14% of those polled know that the First Amendment entitles freedom of the press. How dumb can people possibly be? And to think that the press has too much freedom? Do they really want news media that is mandated by the government? Do they have any idea what that might be like? I can't, and don't even want to imagine what that might be like. It's bad enough with all the FCC regulations on tv and the radio. Wow, at the rate things are going right now we might as well just scrap the whole Constitution and start over again. Aparently it just isn't working out any more... too much free "liberal" press, the government minority is too vocal, hell, the minorities in general are getting out of hand, demanding all the same rights as majority citizens. Someone needs to stop them before things get out of hand and the other sheep wake up and realize what's going on. I mean, it's ridiculous, who do they think they are anyway? Ok, enough sarcasm... It just really irritates me that people can be so stupid and so uneducated. They're like lemures... whatever the head lemur does, the rest do. Oh well what are you gonna do other than point your finger and laugh later when they finally learn they're wrong.

Why insist on changing what works

Why is it suddenly a big deal that the minority can filibuster to keep things that they don't want to happen from happening? And why is this something that we now need to change? The majority (Republicans) in the Senate want to end a 200+ year right to filibuster judicial nominations, and to some extent any nominations by the president, which I don't understand. It's stupid, the right to filibuster was put in for a reason, so judges that are too conservative or too liberal can't just be pushed through. But because currently it's a conservative president and a conservative Senate they refuse to think about what it would be like if the situation is reversed. Eventually it's going to change, there will be new senators, a new president, and then what? Then they'll complain that they don't have the right to filibuster... but they'll be the ones who will have gotten rid of it in the first place. There is a reason things were setup the way they were, the minority needs to be protected, whether the minority be liberal or conservative, because their opinion matters too. It really scares me, the new trend of if we don't like something, lets just change the constitution so it works for us. Let's not think about the repercussions, or the rights we may be violating, we just want our way and we want it now.

On a totally unrelated note, I think the barrage of German spam that has been infiltrating my iastate email account has finally stopped! It's about time AIT fixed the problem. Sometimes I seriously wonder if they know what they're doing over there. Rumor has it that one of their web servers, or webmaster accounts, was some how infiltrated and was sending out tons of German spam. It was wonderful... checking my email and having over 100 new messages, most of which were in German. Supposedly the problem was fixed last night, but I still had about 20 when I checked first thing this morning... now they're just going to my spam folder. I wish they'd actually get the problem fixed... hey, what do you expect really? Ha! It's worse than when people reply to a group account asking to be removed from the mailing list when it says at the bottom of the original email who you should contact to be removed. Or when people hit reply-all when they should be doing just a reply. Some people are just so stupid... they never cease to amaze me.

101 things about me

1. Full name: Denise Bacher
   
2. Date of birth: April 26 , 1984
   
3. Height: 5'7''
   
4. Parents: Bill & Donna
   
5. Sibling(s): Bill
   
6. Pet(s): Buddy and Sandy, my puppies
   
7. What book are you reading: Currently nothing, hopefully that will change soon
8. What time is it now: about 11 pm
9. What's on your mouse pad: Don't have one, optical mouse baby
10. What's your favorite board game: Twister... that is a board game, right
11. Favorite magazine: Wired, Spin, Cosmo
12. Tea or coffee: Coffee, duh
    
13. Favorite sound: Thunderstorms (which we're having right now), friends' laughter, and the hum of a computer
    
14. Worst feeling in the world: Finding out the person you love doesn't love you back
    
15. First thing you think of in the morning: Usually how badly I don't wanna get outta bed
16. How many rings before you answer the phone: 2 or more
17. Favorite color: red
18. What's the most important thing in your life: My friends and family
19. Favorite food(s): Hot braised chicken, orange chicken, General Tso's chicken, pizza, tacos...
    
20. If you could play an instrument what would it be: I can play the sax, but I think it'd be fun to learn piano or guitar
21. Do you like to drive fast: YES
22. Sleep with a stuffed animal: With Mr. Monkey sometimes, but he usually ends up on the floor
23. Storms - cool or scary: Way cool
24. What type is your car: '95 Dodge Intrepid
25. Favorite alcoholic drink: Beer, rum and Coke, Sex on the Beach
26. What's in the trunk of your car: Jumper cables, 1x2, windshield washer fluid
    
27. What's your dream job: Working for Rockstar or Pixar... oh what a dream
28. Ever been in love: Once
29. Is the glass half empty or half full: What's in the glass?
30. Favorite movie(s): Napoleon Dynamite, Kill Bill, Spiderman, LOTR, Top Gun, Princess Bride.... etc etc etc
31. Do you type with your fingers on the right keys: Yeah, usually
    
32. What's under your bed: few boxes and my suitcases
33. What's your favorite number: 7
34. What's your favorite sport to watch: College basketball baby
35. If you could build a house anywhere, where would it be: Somewhere where it's always warm
    
36. What's your favorite article of clothing: Blue jeans and a hooded sweatshirt
37. Beach, mountains or city: Oooh, tough, prob beach then city then mountains
38. Technology or art: A sweet combination of both... can we say 3D animation
39. Comedy or horror: Comedy, I'm all about the haha's
40. Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex: Hands, eyes
41. Favorite time of day: Sunset and right before I fall asleep
42. Last CD you bought: Prob Cold Play, but I don't remember
43. What's your favorite place to be massaged: Back, shoulders and calves
44. What's more important, strong in the mind or strong in the body: Strong in the mind
45. What time do you wake up in the morning: usually 6-7.... gotta work
46. What's your favorite kitchen item: Microwave
47. What makes you really angry: Stupid people
48. Sports car, motorcycle or SUV: again, tough, toss up between the sports car and the motorcycle
49. Do you believe in the afterlife: not really, I believe more in reincarnation
50. What's your favorite season: Summer
51. If you could have one super power, what would it be: I wouldn't want any, I'd probably just screw things up worse than they already are
52. Can you juggle: depends on what we're juggling ;)
53. What's your favorite day of the week: HUMPDAY! haha, j/k Friday's are my favorite
54. Do you prefer sushi or hamburger: Chickens.... yum
55. What's your favorite cartoon: Boondocks, Non Sequitur
    
56. What's your favorite children's book: Dr. Seuss books
    
57. Do you have a tattoo, where and what is it: Yes, on my back and of my little moon
    
58. Do you have any piercings, how many: 7, 5 in the left ear, 2 in the right
    
59. What's your favorite flower: Calla lilies... other assorted lilies, irises, orchids
    
60. What's your favorite meal: Anything I didn't have to cook, I love it when someone cooks for me
    
61. Describe your pj's: usually an over sized t-shirt and shorts
    
62. What's your favorite ice cream: Cookies and Creme... or Ben & Jerry's Phish Food or One Sweet Whirled
    
63. Favorite TV show(s): Simpsons, Futurama, Sex and the City, Friends, CSI
    
64. How many email addresses do you have: 6
    
65. Best Advice: Always be yourself
    
66. Best Cliche: There is no "I" in "team"... to which I retort "There may be no 'I', but there certainly is a 'me'"
    
67. Words and/or phrases you over-use: Oh yeah? Your mom and Whatever
68. Have you ever been to jail: Nope, not yet *crosses fingers*
    
69. What type of music do you listen to: Everything except country
    
70. Political affiliation: Independent liberal
    
71. Do you want to have kids: Nope
    
72. Favorite restaurant(s): Little Tai Pei, Carlos 'o Kelly's, Chilli's, Red Lobster
    
73. What sports do you like: Basketball and soccer. I hate football and baseball
    
74. When you die, do you want to be buried or cremated: Cremated
    
75. Do you believe in aliens: Yeah, it's a big universe for us to be the only ones
    
76. What do you obsess over: School and grades
    
77. Favorite kind of pizza: Sausage, and Chicken Supreme and Taco
    
78. If you could live anywhere, where would you live: Arizona, basically anywhere warm
    
79. What kind of guys are you attracted to: Tall, skinny, smart, intelligent, funny, a little nerdy
    
80. Who is your favorite author: Terry Pratchett
    
81. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be: I'd be smarter and more self confident
    
82. If you could change one thing about your past, what would it be: I'd be more open with people
    
83. Do you eat breakfast then brush, or brush and then eat: eat then brush
    
84. Do you ask the person out, or wait for them to come to you: Depends, I'm more apt to drop subtle hints
    
85. Do you mind paying for a date: Not at all
    
86. What is most important in someones personality: Intelligence and a sense of humor
    
87. Who's more important, family or friends: Both, I couldn't live without either
    
88. Do you get stressed out easily: Yes
    
89. Can guys and girls just be friends: I think so... but I also think it depends a lot on the 2 people and even more on the guy
    
90. What's your dream car: I want a Mercedes or a BMW
    
91. Do you smoke: Ew, no
    
92. What's your favorite animal: Doggies
    
93. Favorite candy: Gummy bears, Skittles, Milky Way
    
94. If you could meet anyone, who would it be: Mahatma Gandhi
    
95. What's your favorite drink: Diet Coke
    
96. Do you believe in love at first sight: No
97. Have you ever broken a bone: Yes, my right arm
98. Do you use your hands when you talk: OMG yes!
99. What's your favorite popsicle flavor: Cherry
100. What's your favorite holiday: Last day of finals
101. Do you sing in the shower: Wouldn't you like to know
     

I'm bored

I'm bored, and I was paroosing the news this morning and found an article about how Google is looking at how to make Blogger better by integrating it with Gmail. Well, this sparked my intrest because I *heart* Gmail. I was also going through some of my old emails, cleaning out my inbox and rediscovered Rust Boy. It's this little animated character that some guy, Brian Taylor, is working on, and you can learn how he does some of the stuff, and watch snippits that he's completed, it's really neat. Granted I find it neater than most because I have a passion for 3D animation. But the texturing is good, that's something I need to work on and learn better. Oh well, I still love
my panda, he's so funny.